tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3945086961522871441.post8812465974835601702..comments2023-07-08T04:05:05.493-04:00Comments on Dali Mamma Lama: Did it really not post???PFunkyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13596980865478871482noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3945086961522871441.post-31645283550586379252010-05-16T07:47:32.901-04:002010-05-16T07:47:32.901-04:00Yeah. I get this. I so get it. My tumor markers co...Yeah. I get this. I so get it. My tumor markers continue to rise (a bad sign) but they see no cancer. I was told that I could either have unreliable markers (oh, let me be unreliable) or that cancer could be 'defining' (let me save them the trouble. I can define cancer all by myself). The thing is this: It is what it is. I hope just as you hope, but we don't know. One night, my husband and I lay in bed, and we finally talked about cancer. He's such an optimist. We did, for once, look at the thing squarely. At the end of it, I said, "Where the kids are concerned, we need to be optimistic. Between you and me, we need to be realistic." He agreed. What that means, though, is that nothing has really changed. We are still living our days out just as we always have. There's just a new awareness, I guess. A savoring. Putting each other first, maybe. I don't know. It's the same, but different.Debbyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09531125606268748793noreply@blogger.com